Tell Me What’s Out There

I got a new job last Saturday. A job I had wanted for a long time. I should have been ecstatic. I should have wanted to celebrate, but instead, I began to imagine all the things that could go wrong and all the reasons why I didn’t deserve it. I was unable to enjoy this moment because I was too caught up in my own head.

This was my inspiration for the collage. I wanted to portray that feeling of being stuck in a cycle of negative thoughts, in a depressive episode, or just in an unhappy place. Just like the man in the drawing is trapped in a drab grey room, unable to experience all the colours he knows are out there.

To create the collage I used a couple of old music magazines and the wrapper from a bar of soap that was too beautiful to throw away. I usually spend a long time cutting pieces here and there, and only at the very end do I decide how to put them all together. I never plan; I always let my mood decide what I will create. For me, it is an incredibly cathartic process that leaves me feeling quite serene.